Transition.

Call it planning or luck or fate, but before the fallout from coming out I had been seeing a doctor and saved up a bit and used it all for hormones. I hadn't started yet before losing everything and considered waiting but I figured why not?

So despite my situation I decided recently to transition anyway . I am only around a month in but have already started to feel and notice some changes.

At first the only thing I felt was tired.  Super tired. The craziest amount of fatigue I have ever felt.

Now as it has been a month this coming Friday, I am already noticing some changes other than fatigue. Subtle but definitely signs that things are changing.

I am nervous especially with being in a tent and beginning a cross country adventure but it feels right. And things haven't felt right for a long time so I'm going with it.

Have bike, will travel... after assembly.

Things have been been moving along at a decent pace lately. I am now "homeless tent camping" in another city now. I got a bike for free and worked an odd job for bike supplies. I plan to leave North Carolina in another week or so to bike my way to Oregon.

I know it's super crazy but hopefully I can camp, find some safe couchsurfing and meet some Transgender people on my journey. I will take a picture of the bike when it is road ready :)

Update on my Facebook page and situation

So my Facebook page about my road to transition is now literally going to be about my "road" to transition.

After doing some research I have decided to pack up the tent and head to Oregon.

Yes like the pioneers of the 1800s (okay so maybe they didn't take hormones, or have belong to a transgender community on Google plus) I have decided to see America while heading to Oregon to settle.

I know, I know sounds crazy right?
Well, like I have said before I don't feel comfortable where I am at and I can be in a tent trying to get myself together anywhere and I want to try it in Portland.

I will explain more later and get my Facebook Page up by tomorrow. I plan to head out in the next few weeks.

I want to visit some places along the way and meet other transgender people and communities as well.
I know when traveling I will have to be a "boy" most times and I am okay with that because it will be on my terms and that it what counts.

I plan to get to places and my final destination however possible at this point, but I hope to have a clearer idea by this weekend.

Anyway, this is in the beginning stages, l am always open to advice, help with my plan or just a "good luck!"

Facebook Page Name?

Since I have A LOT of time on my hands now when I'm not looking for a side job or coming up with a plan to get my life together and be "ME", I have gotten into social media, lol. I realize that being queer and transgender is complex. So i decided to use different social media outlets for different purposes. My Facebook Page will not focus on my homeless struggles or social issues. I want to use it for a a place to track my transition process as I start naturally initially. As with all of this I also want to connect with my transgender brothers and sisters, so it will be a place to share and give and get friendly advice, tips, and such.

So I need a name for this page. Any Suggestions?

My Origin Story

Let me first say, I am not a writer, but with everything else in my life I'm hoping that gets better over time :)
If anyone knows me from Google+ then you are already aware of my "sob" story. I will tell it again, in brief fashion, for those who don't know.
I'm in my 20s and have always known, even if for awhile DEEP down, that I am not a boy. Despite my name, my "equipment", and everyone treating me as such I knew I was a girl. For most of my teenage years people thought  me to be a gay male, even though I LOVE women, they assumed I was fooling myself. I was in denial of course, but not about being a gay male but about actually be a gay woman.
Skip forward to last year...
I made the realization of my trans identity and began to get makeup, cute clothes, a wig and such in secret.  My two other male roommates did not know. I named myself and began secret going out to LGBT functions in another city as "myself". At first I felt free! Well, as most things go like that, I started to experience the pull in two directions.  While watching Spider-man (Yes, I'm kinda geeky girly) the realization hit I was like this bizarre superhero. Leaving the house with a hidden outfit, changing in bathrooms quickly, two names...I was like TRANSGIRL! But I didn't feel super or powerful at all. So I decided to change that.
Skip forward to a few weeks ago...
I came out and lost everything...Friends, my place became unsafe, my roommates found and destroyed my girl things, and I lost my job.
Skip forward today...
Homeless, jobless, and having to go in boy mode full time for lack of resources and safety I am creating this blog as a place to vent for me and others.  Everyone has a different story and I want to hear it and share it. I am by no means finished! Neither are all the young and old transgender people out there dealing with whatever issues they face.
I started a Twitter and various other accounts, and will start a new Facebook page soon about my road to transition. I want those accounts to be either fun or about sharing news. This can be a place to vent, share, converse, laugh, cry, whatever!
I look forward to this experience!
Audrey